2010

How the hell i'm going to live without you theese months? It's the beggining and I'm already feeling depression in my veins. By the way, Happy New Year. It's boring without you. Text me whenever you want to know if I'm OK, well, if you really want so...

xmas

for me it's really exciting not knowing who you really are, they say all the time that you aren't who you show you are, that makes things more interesting sometimes well mostly of times i feel kinda lost i don't know what to do in this situations cause it's my first time and i don't know what to do wait forget love kiss say goodbye? what should i do? now in my brain there're two people, more difficult than it used to be, it sucks.
i really don't like much xmas, but always there's a little piece of hope going around in my heart to have a good time and maybe find/forget someone for a couple of hours, but well, it sucked. well, the truth is that i would have loved to spend xmas with you ok ok, dreamer huh?
hope hope hope hope hope hope hope hope hope , it's never going to fade away
About friendships, well its always the same ive got a little of girls around there, three the best ones, but theres always some troubles. so, 'not a fully fully friendship' my daddy words.
i wasn't born to be alone, talking about love. really.

I have nothing to say, but I'm bett♥er. ~ I love you girls!

When you most think that everything's going so perfect to be good, things aren't as good as they seem to be.
Sometimes, I mean mostly of times, life gives you a huge unexpected surprise, shocking you and taking almost (or all) your hopes away from your soul. There's a solution for everything , some people use to say. But really, for this damn thing I'm living, I can't find a solution. I really don't see it on my way. I just can't take my mind off you. I feel weak, my heart does not stop bleeding and it really scares me a lot. It kills me inside not to know if you're fine, if you miss me as much as I miss you; I cannot stand being away from you (more than we used to be), well, sincerely, I really need you to say that you still do love me. I don't know what to do, I feel so confused. I miss you. I feel like my heart's about to stop beating right now. But I swear, if it keeps beating, I'll suffer. So, I'll kill it in on my own. I'm tired of suffering. No more love in my life. NO more boys, the only love I'll acept is the one that comes from my friends and family.

I need this thing to get better, fast please. I can't forget you, either using another person. I just can't look another man that it's not you.

I should have waited for you.

I guess they were right. No wait, they are right. I should have waited for you, instead of trying to forget you using another one. Now, I'm suffering, and I don't have him and I don't have you either. I prefer you honey, anyway.

the end.

Woow. I wasn't expecting this to happen so fast. Actually, my inner being knew that things were going wrong, but I thought it had a solution, but. That phone call destroyed the little parts of my heart that had been just repaired of a bad relationship before. It did hurt, a lot. I swear. I was so shocked. Inmediately I run away to my bedroom, laid down and cover my head with my pillow, some relaxing music in my iPod and started thinking about it all. IT WAS ALL MY FAULT. I was the guilty of suffering, in all the relationships I had ever had. Why was I so masoquistic? I knew that he wasn't to be the ONE, the 'serious' boyfriend I was looking for, but anyway, my heart started falling in love again, (or for the first time?) and I wasn't able to stop it, until it crushed again. It crushed so hard, so hard that it started bleeding more than the last time it did. So, well... 'I'm not prepared for this' OK. So, hurting huh?, I broke up with him obviously by internet, 'cause if i had broken up with him watching him in his eyes, I wouldn't have been capable to resist him, I would have started crying so badly and I'd start asking to God why all my relationships sucked so hard, all in front of you... thanks God I didn't do it using that way. Now, I don't know if I regret, or what. I do miss you. I don't know what to do. If I get back with you, I know I'm gonna suffer, because you're not the right one for me. You want something I do NOT want. But I miss you, if I don't get back with you. My heart keeps bleeding... How the heck am I going to sleep tonight?

le fashion #

This is my world, the one I belong to, & the one I'm going to keep belonging to. I don't care if you can't accept this world. You don't accept this world, you don't accept me. Clear?

You are NOT going to change my mind.
I w a s b o r n t o w a l k w e a r i n g h i g h h e e l s .

lovesick

Guess what? I just realized that for my heart, you're useless. Sorry about the cruel-ish way to say it, but it's what it is. I really mean that! Why should I try to change your personality? Maybe because I just realized you will never change. That's you, but I'm not prepared to get along well with you. You're not the one for me. Wish my brain stopped relationing you with him, I really do. But I don't know why, I can't split up with you.

... fueras sincero
... fueras dulce
... fueras atento
... fueras divertido
... fueras cumplidor de tus promesas
... fueras fiel
... pasaras la noche conmigo
... comieras conmigo
... vivieras conmigo
... soñaras conmigo
... me llamaras seguido
... saldrias a mostrarme delante de todos

... maduraras de una vez por todas.

smile to me baby

You're my reason to live. You really are.

real-ity

love Bosworth

MONTAG

near near future

Cavallari

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